School made me do it

This has sat in my drafts since 2017....

At 37, I decided to go back to school.

One of the assignments from this week was to start journaling. I used to love writing in a journal. I loved to blog.

But nonetheless, here we are... don't write anymore. It's been radio silence on the end of my pen for years.

Here is attempt # 109  to start dedicating time to myself to reflect and record.


School Assignment:

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The Personal Diary of Dawn Marie

Entry 1

Is your attitude positive, negative, or both? What can you do to achieve a more positive attitude?

I try to maintain a positive attitude and am known for being optimistic even through difficult times.

My best friend jokes that I’m all “rainbows and sunshine, all the time.” But sometimes it just feels like a façade. It feels like I’m lying to everyone (including myself), because my soul is sad… and tired.

I think it probably shows more than I realize.

I keep working on myself and pushing forward, waiting for my insides to match my outwardly smile.  I know that I have to focus on the good things in my life and not hold onto the past. I know that I have to keep setting goals and living a life full of hope, of joy.

They say that that happy people choose to be happy, so I try to make that choice continuously. But it’s not always easy.

One thing I want to work on right now, that may help aid in elevating my sense of happiness/ contentment – is to be more empathic with others who I feel have harmed me, who I feel have let me down, or who I feel disrespect me or have been unfairly apathetic towards me.

I need to start taking better care of my health as well. If I’m both mentally and physically exhausted and not feeling well, then how will I ever feel truly happy?